Being friends with a pretty girl is hard. Being best friends with a pretty and popular girl is even harder. It’s hard seeing her flirting with boys and your guy friends. It’s hard seeing her closer to your guy friends than you are. When you are hanging out with her it’s hard to see her walking between two guys while you trail behind them. It’s hard to see the boys laughing along with her and let her lean on their shoulders. It’s hard because I think back to myself, I think back to how I can’t communicate with boys, and when I try to talk to them the same way as her they stare at me weirdly. It’s hard because when I try to be close to my guy friends, they shrug me off and say “what are you doing.” It’s hard because the boys just treat me like a guy instead of a girl. It’s hard because I will never be able to meet people the way that she does, and it’s hard because I seem like a shadow against her light. Being friends with a pretty girl is hard. But really, being best friends with a pretty and popular girl is even harder.
- me: im ugly
- friends: no you're not
- me: I AM UGLY and that's a fact. guys don't add me on facebook and like my pictures, they don't ask for my number, i get 5 text a day, one from my dad, two from my mom, one from the phone company and another one from some girl in my class asking me if there's something for tomorrow. guys don't text me saying 'goodmorning beautiful' or just even saying 'hi whats up?' if i have any guy friends they're one maybe two. you guys DO get texts, boys flirt with you, you're always complaining about boys, when nobody ever calls me pretty. you guys get a compliment at least twice a day, boys play with your hair, kiss your cheek, hold you from behind, and i'm just there watching, and if any boy wants to talk to me it's because they want me to give them something, or to call me bad names. i don't have 120 likes on my profile picture, i'm scared of doing a party because i know i would't have any guy friends to invite. is it because i don't let anyone know me? NO, it's because i don't look good. why all the pretty girls out there are full of 'guy friends'? don't tell me because they're the best people ever because it ain't true. my teeth are not perfect, i don't like my smile, i'm insecure af, my eyes have nothing special, i don't even have the perfect body, so don't tell me i'm not ugly because i am.
A few days ago I saw on Tumblr this website named Design Seeds, they analyze photos and figure out the colour palette of it, and I have absolutely fallen in love with it. On top are six photos & colour palettes I love.
As you can see I am definitely a sucker for pastel, green, brown. There are times where I like rich and dark colours but only when they don’t pop, for example like berry red, colours that pop hurts my eyes (haha weaker MIchelle).
Please do share your favourite palettes so I can look at them as well! I love going through the websites and talking with my friends about different colour palettes!
I don’t know if you’are excited for Christmas but I certainly am, it is the only thing to keep me going through assessments and tests. Although it is quite a shame that Hong Kong never snows, this year my parents will be buying a real Christmas tree and will be having a huge Christmas party so I can’t wait for those two weeks of holiday. Give it to me~
If you are wondering where I have been the past week, whether I was dead or not, I went to work experience in a Psychologist Speech Therapy Center to “prepare for the future”, it was so entertaining, fun and I have one of my classmates there with me. We got so much closer and that week was like a week removed from reality, it is quite upsetting now that i have school in an hour, which means assessments again. I will have a Work in Progress fair on Wednesday for my personal project, and I barely started. I have two days to complete most of my product, which is hard. (sighs) Why do I always leave things to the last minute?
Have a nice day everyone, and good luck!
My family doesn’t understand me, they think that they can joke about my weight and my body and how I look because I am their daughter, that they can go around so easily saying “you need to lose 10 pounds to look good in that dress shirt” because I am a forgiving person, that they can look at how I dress and say that it looks like I’m not respecting my body because I can throw those critiques away. They don’t get that when I hear those compliments I want to cry, that I am actually a person that is very self-conscious and I wish that I can lose weight too but I really can’t because no matter how hard I try it’s impossible. They don’t understand that it’s not easy being a daughter of two people that thinks that joking about their daughter’s appearance is hilarious. It’s not like that, I have feelings too, you know.
Update || 7.11.2013
I don’t have school today because of arranged parents meetings and I had mine yesterday night. Yay for a day of relaxing!
(or not because I have homework piling up.)
Am currently colouring a drawing my friend drew in the middle of art class last year of Chocolate Rain! I am not a drawer but definitely a colourer, but I will have to be a drawer as well soon since I decided to choose Art as a high level subject for next year and I don’t know why I decided to choose that but it seems relaxing and generally better since my other two high level subjects will be quite chaotic. I really need to sharpen my skills and practice practice practice!
Have a nice day everyone!
p.s. I have started an art blog because I am hoping to receive comments in my drawings and things, I haven’t uploaded anything onto there yet but soon will so please check it out once in a while! It’s called maplecrumble! :)
All right, here’s another batch of my “let me sketch you” series.
This time, you’ll end up having long hair (so it’s better if you have medium-long hair already..), long necks, unclothed… and just well, let the samples of my series above show you. I promise I’ll try to make the paintings resemble you although please understand that I don’t aim for realism… more on semi-stylized blah. so yeah. It might not look like you at all; but I’ll definitely try!
I’ll be choosing two by December 7; using a random number generator :)
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